talking about my relationship last night somehow opened a pandora box inside of me so here I am again ranting
this time will be about how I've grown in this relationship
In my opinion, candidate A (still reliving my MUET moment lol everytime I think of it I laugh) I think that a relationship should make you grow whether it is BGR (boy girl relationship) or friendship or God or any social contacts you had with others
if there's no growing, what's the point?
here's some example on how I've grown hahaha now you will understand my catchy post title

5 years ago
boyf lookin at phone.
me: "WHO ARE YOU SMS-ING WITH?!!"

now
me: "food is hereeeeeee!"

5 years ago
boyf still looking at phone
me: "WHO IS THE GIRL YOU'RE TALKING TO?!!!"

now
me: "eh, what she say what she say? reply her lahhhhh"

5 years ago
while sms-ing (last time no wechat what)
me: "baby, what are you doing?"
me: "baby why you no reply me?"
me: "baby call me."
me: "baby you no love me already ah?"
(lollll, okay okay I admit I was kind of clingy last time)

now
me: "eating now, ttyl."
me: "oops, fall asleep, you called me ah?"

5 years ago
caught boyf looking at other girls
me: "WHY ARE YOU STARING AT HER BUM???!!"

now
me: "yahor, actually quite nice lor her bum. good eye sight ah"

5 years ago
me: "WHY IS SHE ASKING TO MEET YOU ALONE?!!! SHE LIKES YOU ISIT!!!?"

now
me: "go meet her lah, she no other friends already leh, ke lian."

and mind you, it doesn't mean that my feelings toward him has changed
It's just that, I know how he feels about me and all these minor things doesn't mean as much to me as it does last time when we first got together
okay, maybe I was insecure last time and just needed him to reassure that he loves me and me alone
I'd like to think that I'm super zen now that I don't scream that much hahahaha
yeap, that's me, extraordinaire zen guru
join the line if you want to learn from me ya?

xx.